This smile of happiness just covers all the tears I shed. Because in reality, I’m dying inside, I’m so broken, struggling to hold all the pieces together. I put that smile on face so I don’t have to show the world what’s really going on. I wish I knew a way out of this mess I call my life. I wish there was an easier way to live than this. I’m sick of pretending everything is ok and just taking life how it comes. I’m sick of being told what’s wrong with me and how I can’t do anything right and that I’m basically a fuck up. I have no self-confidence anymore, why would I? I’m told everyday how everything I’m doing, or have done is wrong. Just please save me.
I was recently told by someone I hold dear to my heart, that my face looks like it just hit puberty. Way to ruin my self esteem. I’m already self conscious enough about my skin and the way I look. I do everything I physically can to make my skin look better, I attend school for skin care but I’m running out of options. I became so self conscious I started on acne medications because of what this person said. I hope it helps. So maybe the whole world doesn’t see me as the girl who looks like she just hit puberty.